Dear Friend, Part 2

I really do miss you
We had plans to go to the same college
To be each other's maid of honor's
To always be there for each other

Where did it all go wrong?
The older we became, the further we grew
Was it jealousy, were we toxic?
Was our friendship built on sand?

Looking back I know where I went wrong
And wish I could explain my behavior
Would you tell me why you acted
The way you did to push me away?

We were so close, you and I
Practically attached to the hip
But did that stunt our growth?
Unable to breathe between us both?

So many if's and but's circling in my brain
But the damage is done and all that's left is a remnant of pain
Regret as my eyes glass over
As I whisper a letter that will never be heard or read