Pierced

I felt the needle go through my skin
As you would cut through my cunt
I felt the needle pierce flesh
As your sword would spear me night after night
And when I knew that it was okay
I let out a sigh and watched them put it in
You on my mind
You on my thighs
You in my head
You in my bed

I wanted it to last
The adrenaline rush
I wanted it to be forever
Your warm, soft touch
But soon it was gone
Like everything before
You beat my senseless
Called me your whore

So I moved to self-mutilation
Then slowly to this
I needed something to hurt me
Not just your kiss

And now I have this to show
This silver hoop inside of me
And I sit here wanting you to know
Everything's not right
You pierce me time and again
And I allow it to go on
It can't keep happening
Even if I'm not that strong

I want
I have
I need
I long for
This
You
Over
Ben