“JEALOUSY” ............a sin that d

I thought I could just wipe out the bad memories that booze left behind
 We had some really fun times and some bad stretches as well
 The good far exceeded the bad in my debatable opinion
 Sadly I am losing the battle of self confidence and reason
 Your lack of trust in me feels like a dagger to my thigh
 So much so that I thought of just leaving without a goodbye
 I am not proud of most of my actions in this scenario
 I know that I agreed to forgive and put this behind us
 It's that arrogant asshole guiding me as he sits on my shoulder
 I can't guarantee you that tomorrow will be any different
 I will try my best to make this marriage whole again
 I was posting our wedding pictures on Facebook with pride
 I was bragging about my beautiful bride from long ago
 So why did I have to end one fight only to start another?
 I let the forgiven past come right back to taunt me
 I gave the jealous demons the keys to my mind
 They made me do things tantamount to treason
 It was like I was going insane for no logical reason
 Reinventing myself all over again is what I need for success
 I know you are leery of handing out another "second" chance
 I am so sorry I awoke you from your sleep,
 Then accuse you of marital malfeasance on unproven theory
 I was convinced that you were guilty of infidelity
 There was no way you could walk away without some punishment
 A deadlocked jury was not to be swayed by unproven facts
 I had verified almost every call that went through her Apple 5
 I must really keep those workers at Verizon in stitches
 I lost count of how times I logged in and then got booted out
 I am so thankful that my wife continues to support me
 Time will tell if this marriage blooms into a beautiful flower
 Both of us are headed to bed early tonight
 We are backlogged on sleep and no energy is present
 I know that I have been taught a valuable lesson
 Jealousy is a very strange emotion
 It can ruin a marriage just by one stray thought
 If you fool around chances are you will get caught