Tim to Bella Pt. 01

Hi my name is Bella. I am a sissy girl and this is the story of my sissy journey.

I was 21 year old when I got into this college for my Masters Digree. I was excited as I had dreamed to get into this college because this college was popular among people my age as a very cool college with very very liberal rules. Like they didnt care about your attendance even if it was zero as long as you clear all the exams. So students here got a lot of time to have fun instead of attending classes as long as they ensure they study well and clear all exams.

The first time I entered the class, I remember I was late and had to hurry to the backside of the class while hundreds of my new classmate watched me. I reached the backside but couldn't find any empty seat to sit on. I felt like my bodys gonna start to shake from the panick attack beginning to build up in my body. However just then I saw a guy's hand raised signalling me to the empty seat next to him. I ran to it and sat down quickly so everyone would stop looking at me.

"Thanks," I said to him smiling.

"you are welcome, I am Shawn," he offered his hand to me.

I placed my hand on his to make a shake hand and said, "Tim".

We smiled at each other and then shifted our attention to the professor. We had several classes that day and then after all the classes were done we went to the food court to eat something.

Just when me and Shawn started to eat, a guy from our class who we had seen sitting behind me, came and said,"Hi, can I sit here?"

To which I looked at Shawn who said "Sure man, have a seat."

He thanked Shawn and said, "I am Jason".

We also introduced ourselves and three of us started eating and chatting.

They had big sandwiches while I just had some pieces of apple to which Jason asked, "Thats all you gonna eat? its too little. Do you want to have bit of my sandwich?"

To which I said "Thanks, but I get full easily.I can never eat that sandwitch in one sitting."

Shawn put his hand on my shoulder and said "You mean like this sandwich is too big for you?" and smiled with amusement to which I noded confused and not getting the humour behind the joke yet I felt like Jason was trying really hard to stop himself from laughing.

Next Day me, Shawn and Jason sat together in class. I noticed class was half empty just on its second day as everyone knew there was no consequences to bunk the classes. I guess on first day everyone just wanted to see the class,get acquainted with few classmates and see the professors for each class.

Once while taking notes, I accidentally dropped my pen.I bent down to pick it up but couldn't reach, just then I saw a hand grabbed it and picked it up.

I got up and saw the guy offering me my pen "Here you go".

I took the pen and said, "Thanks".

To which he replied, "you are welcome, I am Darius by the way."

"Tim." I replied with a smile.

"This is Shawn and I am Jason."

"Nice to meet you guys." said Darius.

After the last class we again went on to the food court to eat and chill. Everyone ordered big burgers and I was worried I wont fit in. So I ordered a burger too. All three guys devoured their burger in no time stopping inbetween only to talk and laugh. After couple of bites I was already full and had no desire to eat it any further. I tried to hide it and ate couple more bites forcefully.

Shawn was watching me struggle quietly and said, "Its ok Tim, I know you cant eat that burger any more, why dont you give it up?"

I was ashamed of being caught but I agreed and said, " yeah, but I'd hate to waste the food."

"Oh, in that case, why dont I finish that burger for you?" asked Shawn.

"Oh great, thanks Shawn," I said.

Shawn reached for his pocket and took out some cash and handed it to me and said, " I would need a soda after I am done with your burger, go and bring one for me."

I said, "Yes Shawn," took the money from him and went to the food court counter and got a can of soda and brought it to him just when I saw him devour last bit of my burger.

I was shocked at all of these guys's appetite. I handed the soda to Shawn still a bit shocked to which he replied, "Thanks Tim."

The next day, me, Shawn, Jason and Darius were sitting at the food court table chatting when Darius said, "Man I need to find a place soon, I cant keep staying at the hotel, its burning my pocket."

To which me and Jason replied simultaneously, "me too," and then looked at each other with surprice.

I said, "I have looked every where on rental websites and classified newspaper advertisements, there is no place left in this small town, all the places are already taken up by all the students from our college it seems. We are too late!"

Shawn reacted immediately on that saying, " Dont worry guys, I have spare rooms in my place, its little far from here, bit on outskirt of the town but you can live there if you want, I wont overcharge you guys and plus since we are buddies I wont take any deposit from you guys, so you guys wanna check my place out?"

Just when I started to say yes, Jason said out loud, "sure Shawn, that would be awesome". I noded in agreement.

So we left the college to go to Shawn's house. He said its 30 minutes bike ride and one hour if we take public transport bus but the frequency of bus is not good and it could take up to an half hour extra sometimes due to delays. Luckily all three guys had their own motor bikes. I didnt have my own, I was always scared to ride the bike. I would find them heavy and difficult to balance. So Shawn told me to sit with him on his bike. His bike was a very cool sports bike like those moto GP bikes where the backseat is bit inclined and there is no handle to take support on backside. Shawn was leading the route and everybody was following him on their own bikes. Shawn was riding the bike very fast. I was getting a bit nervous as I didnt have anything to grab onto. But the harder part was when he would press sudden breaks to stop incase of red signal or coming traffic. I was just dashing onto him, my chest would dash onto his back hard. I did not know what to do so I did nothing and said nothing. I kept dashing on him everytime he would put sudden break. This happened like atleast 4-5 times.

Finally Shawn said to me, "Wrap your arms around me Tim, or you ll get both of us killed."

I was little taken a back on Shawn's idea and thought its weird but it would keep me safe, so I wrapped my arms around his torso. It felt weird, but it absorbed the jerks from the sudden breaks, it would still make my chest push on his back every time he put on the breaks, but this felt more controllable.

Finally we reached almost exactly in half hour as Shawn had claimed, however I was now convinced the journey should take atleast 10 minutes more to most bike riders as Shawn rode too fast. Me and Shawn reached first but soon other three guys reached too.

I saw Shawn's house for the first time and I couldn't believe my eyes. This was a very big estate. It was bigger than the cheap motel I was staying at.

"Is this all yours?" asked Darius seemingly as shocked as I was.

"Yeah," Shawn replied.

I said "wow your parents gave you one hell of a birthday present it seems."

Shawn responded, "No, This is all me".

We were all shocked to hear that and had so many questions but before we say anything, Shawn said, "Thats a story for some other day, lets first have a look the place, come with me guys."

Shawn was leading us inside the building, I took the glimpse of the building, it was one storey only but it was wide, very wide. I could clearly make out the structure of building to be of 3 parts, left wing, right wing and the middle structure linking the two wings.

We got inside the main door on the middle section and immediately we came across a huge living room with sofa and a huge TV, dining area and a kitchen and there was a door which I guess was for common bathroom and it had several doors on its left and right side which I could make out to be bedroom doors.

"As you can see, this is the living room, to my right there are 7 bedrooms and to my left are 5 bedrooms. I have taken up that big bedroom already, You can take any of room of your likings from these remaining 6 bedrooms,let me know which one would you need?"

"I call dibs on that one," said Jason pointing to which seem like the second big bedroom.

Darius then took pointed to one bedroom and said he would take that one.

Now Three were occupied, I still had 4 to choose from. I took a look at all the bedrooms and I saw a little room and asked Shawn about that room. Shawn told me that the I would have to pay very less rent for that room almost seventy percent less than others because that bedroom was smaller than others and it didn't have a bathroom attached to it, so I would have to use the common bathroom here in living room. I thought about it a moment and thought to myself that I dont need a huge bedroom and that small bedroom was not that small and had all the essentials like a big bed, a big closet, a table. Besides I thought, not having my own bathroom means I wont have to spend my time on cleaning my bathroom which task I anyways hated. So I gladly took up the smaller room.

Shawn said, " Now that you all have picked up the rooms, I say you move in today itself. You guys dont want to pay charges to hotel for one more night unnecessarily."

Everyone noded in agreement.

He continued, " I am gonna put fliers on college noticeboard and get the other rooms filled up too hopefully soon.".

Jason said pointing at the other side of the hall "Does that include those bedrooms too?"

Shawn said "Yeah, those too."

That day, we moved into our rooms. I loved my room, it was small but cozy. I did have to go out of the room to use the bathroom but that was fine. I was gonna save lot of money on that.

Next day, we were sitting in food court chatting and having fun. Well the guys were chatting, I am usually too shy to talk so much. I was more of a listener and would talk only when any of the guys asked me anything directly. It was then time to eat.

I got up and went to the counter and bought my self a fruit salad. Just when I came back, I saw Shawn with his money in his hand offering it to me.

He said "Get us boys some sandwiches, will you Timmy?" I hated when anyone called me Timmy. I wanted to protest but there was something about Shawn. His presence would make me feel nervous. He was very big. Actually all of them were big. If they stand in front of me, my eyes would meet there chest. They were all big, but Shawn, he just had something. I tried not to think of it, but deep down I knew I was a little scared of this man. So I took the money and went to the counter to get sandwiches.

They gave me a trey with 3 sandwiches on it. I brought the trey to where we were sitting, and put the trey on table and was going to sit down on my chair when I saw Shawn look at me. He looked like he was mad, he didnt blink. I almost peed in my pants. I was very scared. I quickly picked up the trey and brought it to Shawn and presented him with trey. He grabbed one sandwich, looked at me and said, "Thank you Timmy." I felt so helpless.

I then went to Jason and presented him with the trey. He looked at me and shook his head in disgust and grabbed the sandwich. I felt so humiliated. I didnt know why it was happening what all was happening.

I then stood next to where Darius was sitting and presented him with the trey. He didnt react like anything unusual was happening. He just grabbed the sandwich and said, " Thank you Tim."

I then put the empty trey on the table and sat on my chair and started eating my salad.

When we were done three boys out of no where showed up, They told their names as Jerome, Trent and Malcom. They told Shawn they saw the flier for rooms available at his place and said they would like to rent it.

We took them back at our place and Shawn showed them the rooms. They too quickly took the rooms available and said they would unpack here today itself. By evening all three of them had already settled in.

We were watching a game in living room, when Shawn put a hand on my shoulder out of no where. I was traumatized. I didnt know how to react. I just froze on my seat. Everyone was looking at us. I felt like I ll get buried by the weight of his arm on my body. For a moment I thought I should push him away and yell at him, but then I looked at him, his big size, I got terrified of what he could do to me so I didnt react..I didnt do anything. It was getting very uncomfortable for me. I bet everyone else saw it, but I could tell they were enjoying this.

Finally Shawn said "Hey Timmy, why dont you be a darling and bring all of us men something to eat and drink."

I felt embarrassed. I felt humiliated. I should have stood up to him, but I stared down the floor ashamed, noded in agreement and got up and went to the kitchen.

I opened the fridge, took out the frozen chicken and started my work on chicken. I was cutting the chicken into small pieces, when I heard men scream in excitement as our team scored. I then took some beer cans from the fridge, put it on a trey and brought it in the living room where everyone was watching the game. I saw that everyone were looking at me. I felt like they are judging me. I was too ashamed, so I lowered my head to avoid making eye contact.

I reached to Shawn and bent down with trey in my hand who took one can, and said, "Thank you Timmy, can't wait for the delicious chicken you cooking for us." I forced a smile.

Then I went to Jason, bent myself with trey in hand, he looked at me with contempt in his eyes, he grabbed a beer, and said " Dont keep me waiting on chicken Tim, I am starving." I felt like crying.

He saw what his words did to me but he didnt seem like he was bothered.He just took his can from the trey and started watching the game sipping on his beer, not bothered about me still standing there bent down with trey in my hand.

I soon got back to my senses and I moved to Darius, who just smiled at me like its no big deal, took the beer and said "Thanks Tim,its so sweet of you to do this for us."

Darius's words gave me some comfort I wasnt looking for, but I knew he was just being polite. I was aware, he knew I didnt want to do this, and he didnt stood up for me to Shawn. This thought felt more humiliating to me, like why am I expecting some other man to stand up for me against another man. I am a man myself, and I should be the one standing up for myself.

Just then I had a thought in my mind that I should throw the trey on Shawn's face and get the hell out of this place. I just had a look at Shawn, and there he sat, on sofa, with beer can in his hand, he looked so calm. I wanted to punch him in face, I wanted to show him I dont like to take anybody's shit. I gathered couraged and made up my mind to walk to him and throw a punch at his face and tell him, I am not your servant. Just then his head turned towards me, and caught me staring at him.

My stomach started to squeezing from inside. why? why am I so scared of this guy? He didnt do anything or said anything to me. Yet why am I so weak around him? I quickly got out of my trance and knew I shouldn't mess with Shawn, so I moved to Jerome, who just laughed at me, and took his can and thanked me.

Then I went to Trent, who took the beer and said "Thanks little one".

I almost had tears in my eyes. I wish I had somewhere else to go, but I knew, I didnt have the money to rent anything expensive than this and even if I did, I didnt think any other place was still left to taken up.

Then I offered the can on trey to Malcom, he took it and said, "Thank you Tim, run to the kitchen, you dont wanna burn that chicken."

I realised he was right, so I rushed to kitchen, as I heard all men scream as the team scored again.

I could not care less about the game as I was worried of chicken being over cooked. I took it out, luckily it wasnt. I prepared 7 dishes, mine with the smallest chunk of chicken. I put some bread and ketchup too on each plate.

I went out and asked to Shawn, "Shawn, should I bring the dinner here while you watch the game, or are you guys going to eat at dining table?"

Shawn just ignored me. He kept drinking his beer and watching the game as if I didn't exist.

Seeing this, Jason reacted and said to me " Dont you know how important this game is to us boys? you think we would miss the game for anything? Just bring the damn dinner here on couch."

I noded, as the words 'us boys' rang in my ear. I thought in my head, What doe he mean by that? dont I love the game? Would I ever give up watching game for anything? Then it hit me that I did indeed gave up watching the game to make meal for other men on being ordered to do so by one of those men. I felt pathetic, but I went into the kitchen, and brought everyone their plates to eat. I had to bring one more round of beer cans before I could start eating my self.

Everyone was eating and drinking watching the game, but I sat alone on table, I took few bites and got full very quickly. Suddenly, Trent shouted, "hey,Timm, bring me another beer."

I wanted to protest, I wanted to say go fuck your self. I wanted to remind him, that we just met today, and he cant order me around. I thought I should not listen to him..Its one thing to listen to Shawn, he could make me homeless anytime, but why should I put up with others. Especially Malcom, Trent and Jerome whom I met just today. So I didnt do anything, I didnt entertain his request.

Trent shouted again, "Timm, I asked you to get me a beer, where the hell is my beer!!"

He wasnt even looking at me when he said that, He was deeply focused on the game.

I didnt move from my chair, even though I was done eating. I was expecting for Trent to shout at me again ordering me, and I had made up my mind to stand up to Trent and tell him to go get it himself. However,thats when Shawn called my name out. "Timm...."

Shawn didnt shout, he didnt try to sound like he was angry, but when he called me Timm instead of Timmy, it somehow terrified me even more. I felt my body shaking. I just got up, not looking at anybody, I ran to fridge, got the beer can, put it on the trey, and brought it out and offered it to Trent who just gave a look of disgust at me and took the beer can and started drinking it.

I felt humiliated. I wanted to run away. I thought I am trapped here, just then I heard Shawn, talk, this time sensing a little anger in his voice. He called out Trent. "Hey Trent, could you stop being such a prick and thank Timmy. She brought you beer, he brought you dinner to couch, missed the game himself so you dont have to! did you thank him? Did any of you thanked Timmy? Its the least you gentlemen could do!"

Suddenly I felt better. My anger and humiliation softened a bit. Like may be it wont be that bad to live here. May be I could count on Shawn. But wait why am I still feeling like he emasculated me! May be its just me, he was standing up for me.. Everyone in chorus said, "Thank you Tim," and focused on game..I could tell nobody meant it, but just then, Shawn called me to him, I stood in front of him, even though he was sitting down, and I was standing, I wasnt towering over him. I just had to bend my head only a bit to look at him.

Shawn took my hand in his hand and said "I am glad you are living with us. You are amazing Timmy, I never ate such a delicious chicken at my home before. Thank you Timmy. You are the best".

My heart started beating out of my body. I never felt my heart beating so harder and louder before. All my anger melted away. I didnt feel humiliated anymore. I felt special. I tried to get hold of myself, I smiled and said to Shawn, "I enjoyed serving meal and drinks to you."

What? why the hell did I say that!! Did I enjoy having to work around like a woman among men? Why did it slip my tongue. I just felt ashamed, I pulled my hand out of Shawn's warm hands and ran to my room. I closed the door behind me, jumped on my bed my burying my face in pillow. I started crying.