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Click hereGod punishes me yet again
Showing me what love can be
Then he rips it away
He doesn’t want me to be happy
Eight long years have passed
Too scared to take the leap
Knowing rejection is inevitable
My senses I try to keep
She’s beautiful and exquisite
Yet there are complications
She is otherwise attached
I should turn in my resignation
Life throws me curves
And all I do is strikeout
It’s the same story again
Feeling my heart ripped out
Self pity doesn’t help
Or make me feel any better
It just leads to more pain
And writing lame letters
Hurt and alone forever
Is how I am doomed to be
The ice grows around my heart
Emptiness is the punishment for me
Emptiness: That is how I feel whenever God steps on me and kicks me aside and decapitates me and then finally Microwaves me. I so much so I call it BFJ (Big Fuck Jobs). I even thought of killing myself on those times, I'm still alive because I know that is what he wants, is for me to go home early. But still I couldn't help but have thoughts of killing myself. You see to me God is simply a spoiled child and a spoiled brat. That is why I question him.