plaything

This is My Sadness, My Ache , My fear,
that You cannot see my pain, the hurt that i bear,
You opened my mind to a new way to be,
You seen the side of me not meant for you to see,
My intent was simple, plain and true,
but you were different and somehow i knew,
That my preconeived notions  of who You were,
would crumble to dust in a blink and a blur.

I opened My mind, My Body, My Heart,
Invited You into me, right form the start,
My intent put aside, because you were so dear,
I opened my heart and now i fear,
that it's far too far gone to change it's intent,
My heart and my mind are in bitter dissent,
When I'm with you it's an exciting tryst,
but when I'm not, i don't exist.
You make me elated whenever you're near,
and when you're not that's when i fear,
That im nothing more than just a tryst,
a plaything of sorts  to bend and twist.

I put my heart upon my sleeve,
a leap of faith but i do believe,
that you Can't see my hearts a mess,
and i can't tell you and cause you stress.
when You're here my hearts afire,
and when You're not, so much desire,
when You're here  i feel so cherished,
when You;re gone my hope has perished.

You never write, You never call,
and i have to wonder if you think at all,
about me, my smile or even my kiss,
or miss the things i often miss,
YOur voice, Your laugh, Your scent , Your touch,
Your eyes, those  eyes i miss so much.

 i miss You more and more each day,
My heart in ache, my mind astray.
i wish and hope and hope and pray,
in reading this you won't delay,
in telling me how much do,
feel the things i feel for you.
My Precious love, i long for you,
and i hope i hope you long for me too.