What do I want you ask me.

Top of the list?
Above all else?
More than others?

To be loved.

With all your heart, your soul, your mind and your body. Devoted to keeping my heart safe and pure so it can love you right back with as much emotion and feeling as you offer and perhaps some more.

I want your carefree laughter, your comfort and your friendship. These are highly important things, it's a bond and trust, I need to feel safe and secure when you are near.

I crave stability and security to be at my best; these things are key to me feeling those and allowing me to thrive. Don't underestimate my reasons why. If you want my “A Game” then this is a must, or you'll lose me forever, cos I will not trust. I need solid ground beneath my feet and someone I can rely on, I'll initially be looking for the cracks, where the ground beneath me falls away like rust.

I'd like your ears when I need them to listen to me, your mind so that I can explore and get to know you and so you can understand me and perhaps challenge me when needed.

Sometimes I will want your shoulder to cry on or so I can rest my head. I cannot always be emotionally strong nor without the need to release my soul. I'd also like someone I can be weak with in those few moments when I need to be. There will be times when we are together that I am weary and need to rest my head and feel your warmth; and perhaps take shelter in knowing I can do so with you. Not have it judged as a flaw, but welcomed to take respite with you because you wish it to be just that. Taking a beat, a pause; and one where I can feel safe and warm, protected as I protect you.

I want you to be you. Oh I cannot stress how much this matters. Don't say things to impress or try to flatter, be who you are, tell me the truth. Don't let your mouth run riot and if you make a claim I might ask for proof. Don't take this as a negative, it's because I've been lied too before, and if you lie to my face I will show you the door. There is no need, honest it's true, I really do want you to be you, no one is perfect, but I'd like to count on what you tell me; no one can doubt. Dirty little secrets, naughty little lies, tiny little fibs, they all come out...

I want you to share with me, tell me all I desire to know. I will have 50 Billion questions, and just so I can grow. Understand your reasons, find out the why. Work out what makes you tick, what does it for you, how things make you feel, what makes you squeal with delight, or makes you sad, tickles your fancy; so I can avoid what gets you mad. View you as a whole, not just a shadow on the wall, have total clarity, see inside your mind; like I have an accurate Crystal ball.

When things do not need to be serious, I want silliness abound, little jokes and giggles, while we walk outside and around Town. Little smirks while shopping, private jokes in the pub. Longing glances of lust over an Ad Hoc lunch. Smutty comments when no one else is listening, or perhaps when they are... Teasing in the park, random tickles and poking while out walking the dog. Pillow fights in the morning, over who makes the first coffees, or who's turn it is to go clean the sex toys after a session of lust. Silly fights over who gets to sleep in the wet patch, or teasing who made it so, no it wasn't me this time honest, “I am so not a Male Ho!” Laughter without reason, choking on funny thoughts, bursting out roaring with belly laughs; when sarcasm is in full flow. Verbal sparring and banter, intelligent debate, total and utter belief, we were meant to be Soul Mates.

Suggestive comments in inappropriate places, raised eyebrows at strangers tables, looks that can be read and understood, even if others can't get our drift. Tender touches in the morning, symbiotic contact in front of others, wearing our bond like collars regardless of where we are. Nuzzles on our necks, kisses on the nose, fingers over the nape, even when fully clothed. Casual stroking and feeling, just because it's right. Snuggles on the sofa; oh such intimate and pure delight.

Joint cooking in the kitchen, working as a team, equal and opposites when we have to clean. Talents and skills taught, so each other can grow, shared knowledge and reasons, so we are both in the know. Your weaknesses balanced by my strengths, mine to be yours. Bridging those gaps with each other, putting on a good show. Shine out in company, letting them all know, we are together and we are in full flow. Envious people admiring us, but not wishing us bad things, wondering when we are going out; to buy each other rings. Knowing we belong together, as we have it all; anything lacking easily obtained because we will be prepared to work together for them all.

When things do need to be serious, I want to know you have my back, side by side we fight together; not ever turning our backs. If I have to be the Lion, fangs sharp and proud, claws at the ready, if enemies have been found. I need you to be my Lioness, guarding my flank, tooth and claw without question; but only if we must attack. Not that I'd want too, but if it's on the cards, then we do what we do; to protect us and ours. Defend our relationship and hold our ground. Give no quarter, slide into retreat, certainly not ever; accept defeat. Battles can be lost, the war will be ours, our unity and strength, tactical and without doubt. We rally to our friends, take care of our family, if cubs are involved, then it's to the death.

I want our time together, to be hallowed and precious. Quality moments, back to back, looked forward too and treasured. Anticipation and pining, all part of the mix. No 5 minute visits, as those are not a quick fix. Wrapped up in each other, time freely given. Spent totally in love and each moment is a reward and true a pleasure.

For you are to be my one and only, my Queen; so I will love you like no other.

I'll worship the ground you walk on.

If I am your King...

End of Part 1.