Cotton Candy

I have another concern. I masturbated, thinking about Tina. There is no way I can deny that. Is it natural to masturbate thinking about a friend? And I masturbated thinking about a girl! I always thought I was straight! Where the hell did these thoughts come from? I can't deny that she makes me aroused. Am I a lesbian? Am I bi? I'm not sure, at all. I know Tina is attracted to me and I left my proof of attraction, to her, all over my bed sheet.

Chapter 19

My thoughts get interrupted by a knock on my door. It must be Tina, I guess, because nobody else would bother knocking. I'm a little angry at her because she isn't giving me enough time and being busy with others.

"Come in."

"Hey, babe! What are you doing?" she asks.

"At last, you have some time for me? I thought you were too busy to ask," I answer.

"I'm never too busy when it comes to you, babe. Mom and Meg just went to the grocery so we're alone, now," she replies.

I suddenly feel a shiver run through my spine. What does she mean by 'we're alone'? I get tense, does the room still smells of sex? I'm too ashamed to look at her and I don't know if she read it from my face or from my mind.

"So, did you have a good sleep last night?"

Right to the point! How could I answer that? All I can do is blush.

"May I ask you something personal?" she asks.

I know she'll ask anyway, so I nod.

"May I know who you dream about?" she teases again as I blush even deeper but keep silent.

"Hey, I thought we're friends and we can share a few secrets," Tina pushes harder.

I want to share but I'm not like her. I'm too shy and I'm not sure what she'll think if I tell her I dream about her. She may think I'm a pervert, or something, so I turn my face away from her. I don't know if she understands but she comes running and takes my hands into hers. I see the look on her face has changed drastically. The playful, teasing smile is gone. She looks scared and maybe tense or concerned. I think she may cry at any moment.

"I'm sorry, Olivia. Please forgive me," she says.

I don't understand why she's sorry. It's me who should be sorry.

"I know you're shy, and I like that, very much, but sometimes I forget when to stop. I pushed you too much. Please don't be upset or turn your face from me," Tina continues.

I don't know what to say so I just nod.

"Look, I deserve that for teasing you so much. I talk about sharing but I don't share everything with you, either. The fact is, I didn't tease you last evening by intention, not at the beginning, anyway. When I leaned on you, my braless boobs pressed against your back and I got so aroused. I knew you felt my nipples standing erect and pressing on your back and that nearly made me cum. In fact, I didn't notice, at first, that you were also feeling the effects of that touch. But then I saw it and teased you a little but every time I pressed myself against you, I also got aroused and, last night, I came twice just thinking about you touching me!" Tina says.

I'm shocked. Did she really? And she says that so easily. I felt her erect nipples yesterday so I know she isn't lying about it but when she says she came last night thinking about me touching her, I don't think of her as a pervert. Maybe friends can actually share anything. She was looking at me, checking my expression to her confession. I need to say something

"I also thought about you last night and I came six times before losing count," I say.

I see her eyes go big and her jaw drop. Omg. I'm so embarrassed about what I said that I blush deep and hide my face in the palms of my hands as I hear Tina start laughing loudly. After a few moments, I feel her hands on my palms, again. She pulls my hands away to look into my eyes.

"Hey, don't be ashamed. We're all human and we all have urges. There's nothing bad about fancying someone but I know you're shy and I'm really happy you found the courage to share that with me. That's what friends are for. Don't think I'm going to judge you. I want you to tell me everything, okay?" she says and I nod.

"And I want you to tell me the truth every time. Doesn't matter what it is," I reply.

I'm not sure but I think she's being hesitant for a moment, but not for long, before she smiles again. The topic changes and we start chatting freely. I feel a change in me. Maybe it's our confessions that made me understand that we can actually share everything without worrying about being judged by each other. I know I'll say something stupid, every now and then, and will get teased by her but I like the way she teases me.

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Chapter 20

We are walking side by side as I'm accompanying her to the bus stop, again. We had a lot of fun today. After lunch, we all played a dice board game where Tina and Meg were teamed against mom and me and it turned out to be a cheating contest between all three of them whereas I'm the only one who played by the rules.

In the evening, we went to the park. Mom really loves the sight of Tina playing with Meg. She's surprised when Tina sat on one of the swings next to Meg's but it's a good surprise. On our way back, mom treats all of us to ice creams from the conventional shop rather than the new fancy, and costly, one. After dinner, I suggest that I'll walk Tina to the bus stop but she protests a bit, but that isn't good enough to stop me and I don't think she means what she said.

So we walk silently, only a glance and a smile every now and then. Tomorrow is Monday. That means I need to go to work and I think she also has something to do. She says she's never too busy for me but I don't want her to hamper her work just to meet me. We can obviously talk over the phone.

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"I'll call you tomorrow," I say.

"Then you better call me in the afternoon because I'm not sure when I'll wake up tomorrow but I think I'll be awake by then and have enough strength to talk," she replies.

I'm not sure if she has any late night plans, such as maybe going out for drinks, but I don't want to push it if she's not going to tell me herself. Then I think about the last part, 'enough strength to speak over the phone.' What does that mean? I turn towards Tina with my brows raised and see her hesitating. She must have said more than she wanted to but the cat's out of the bag and she's looking at the ground, not wanting to look into my eyes, which is nothing new to me. I'm very used to this kind of expression from Meg because whenever she's caught doing any mischief, she always has the same expression on her face. I'll wait for Tina.

"I have a confession to make," Tina says, at last.

I nod in acceptance and also to let her know I'm listening.

"Actually, when I came to your flat this morning and mom told me you were still asleep, I went to your room to wake you."

She looks at me, checking my expression and wondering how I'm taking it and I nod for her to continue.

"When I opened the door, the room was full of the smell of your sex. Then I looked at you and I froze on the spot. The covers were thrown off of you and I saw you, naked, and all of your privates!"

OMG! She saw me completely naked! But when I woke up today, I had the covers on. I must hear what happened after that so I keep my composer and nod, accepting her revelation, and let her continue.

"I got so horny that I thought about getting naked, too, and getting into bed with you. I would've loved to see you naked the whole day but I knew Meg or mom could possibly come into the room at any time and I didn't want them to see us naked. It took all of my self control to cover you up and I was about to leave when I found this."

Tina opens her purse and pulls out the same black panty I was wearing last night. Now I know why it was missing. I nod again.

"I've been so horny since seeing you naked this morning, I can't wait to get home so I can pleasure myself while remembering the sight of your naked body and smelling and sucking your sex juices from your panty! I'm going to have a marathon of self-satisfaction tonight and I'm not sure when I'll wake up tomorrow."

An image of her on a bed, completely naked and playing with herself while sniffing my cum soaked panty appears in my head and it's so arousing that I nearly cum just thinking about it! But this is bad, now. She saw me naked and she also has my panty. She's a bad girl. In fact, she stole my panty. She's a panty thief! I can't stop giggling at the idea and Tina looks at me. She knows there's something about her that I'm laughing at.

"What?"

"I have a new name for you. How would you like 'panty thief' as your new name?" I ask while laughing.

I see Tina blush deeply at the awful name. I'm the one who gets teased, every now and then, why not tease back when I have a chance?

"So, I think you like it very much as you don't protest," I push a bit harder.

Tina isn't the type who'll backup and accept defeat easily so when she steps back a couple of feet and looks to her right and then to her left, I know she has something on her mind. There is no one on the road, except us, and I'm shocked when she pulls up her skirt and jams her fingers under the waistband of her own panty, fingers her pussy and clit a few times and pulls it down and off. I get to see her bare pussy and I am still frozen by the view, when she comes closer and gives me the red thong she was wearing.

"As I told you, I've been horny since this morning and I've been wet all day long. It may not be as cum soaked as yours but you can still smell or taste me from it, if you want to, and it's a trade, you can't call me 'panty thief', anymore," Tina replies.

The idea is awesome! I can really smell and taste her right now and before I realize it, my hand that's holding her panty, goes directly to my nose and I take a sniff before I extend my tongue to lick the panty. The headlight shining on my face, from a passing car, makes me freeze again as a deer caught in headlights. I can't move or hide.

The people inside the car must have seen me in this shameful act! They certainly think I'm some kind of pervert or something to be sniffing another girl's panty in public and with Tina beside me. I look at her and her eyes are big and her mouth is ajar. She must be surprised, big time, too. Fuck! I thought the damage was done already. Those people have seen me and there is nothing I can do about it now, but I like the surprised look at Tina's face.

She surprises me quite often so why can't I surprise her? Above all, the taste is too good to pass up so I take another good sniff of her panty, trying to savor the smell, and then I give it a few good licks before I get the wettest part in my mouth and start sucking it. My eyes are closed as I'm trying to savor her taste and, when I'm satisfied, I open them. Tina's eyes has become huge and her jaw may touch the ground, soon.

I like the power I have over her and I smile, fold the panty, put it in my pocket and take her hand. I pull her and we both start running towards the bus stop. We can't stop giggling until the bus arrives and I wave good-bye. I think mom and Meg will be asleep by the time I reach home. I have Tina's panty with me and I need a long self-love session, to calm myself, before I'll be able to sleep.

If I'm late for work, tomorrow, I may have to cut my lunch break short in order to pick up Meg on time and I'll blame Tina for that but I'm amazed at how much she has helped me to unwind in the last few days. There's not much hidden between us and we can always share anything. I feel happy and content as I walk alone on the empty road towards my home.

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Chapter 21

I wasn't as late for work as I had expected to be, only fifteen minutes, but I'm both physically and mentally exhausted. No sleep for me last night. First of all, I was too horny, thinking about Tina, when I got into bed and I had to cum, multiple times, before I could relax a little but then I started thinking about us. I know Tina is attracted to me but she doesn't say she loves me or wants to be my girlfriend or anything. We're good friends but I wonder what my answer will be if she suggests sex. I don't think I'll say no. Then what? Will that make me a lesbian or bi? We can be friends after that as well, like friends with benefits, but what if I become serious and she's not ready to commit?

I don't want to get hurt again. What if she wants to get into relationship with me? What should I say to mom and to others? Meg may think that she never had a father in her life because her mother is a lesbian. Oh, god, it's too complicated!

There's no pressure at work as it's slow and that's not helping me at all. I'd prefer to be busy so I have less time to think so I take a small washroom break to have some coffee and freshen up a little, hoping that'll help me think less about Tina. I'm in the washroom, standing in front of the mirror, when the door opens and in comes Angie.

"Do you think Stella can beat me to become Miss La Plaza?" Angie asks.

I have no idea what she is talking about. Angie is twenty-four and she always dreams of becoming a super model and I'll not be surprised if she really becomes one, someday. She's beautiful, tall and has a great figure but there's always a rivalry between her and Stella who works at the salon on the third floor of the mall. Both of them are beautiful but Stella is not my friend, and Angie is, so I support Angie.

"She has no chance against you," I answer.

"Thanks Oli. I know she's no match for me. So, are you going on Saturday?" she asks.

Why, and where, am I expected to go on Saturday? I have weekends off, as usual, and she knows that. So why did she ask? She must have seen the question in my eyes.

"OMG! Don't tell me you don't know? Hasn't anybody told you about the mall's tenth anniversary party on Saturday night?" she asks.

What Angie tells me is, all of the store owners, and the workers, are invited. There will be free food, free drinks and every invited person can bring one person with him/her. There will be a contest for the most beautiful girl working at the mall and the winner will be crowned as Miss La Plaza and a nice bonus also goes with it. But I'm not interested, I'd rather spend the time with Tina and Meg and the fact is, I really don't have anything to wear to parties like this.

"So, are you going?" Angie asks again.

I think she wants me to cheer for her when she wins it. After all, we are friends.

"Angie, I understand that you may like me to cheer for you but I need to spend some time with my daughter, too. I'm very sorry but I'm not sure about coming on Saturday night."

"Hey, I don't want you to go to cheer for me. If I win the crown, I want to win it fair and square, I don't want to win it because my competitor stays away," she replies.

I'm more confused. I thought she wanted me to cheer for her and now I'm puzzled.

"Who's going to stay away?" I ask.

"You!" she answers.

Does she really think I can be her competitor for the most beautiful girl working in the mall? I don't think so! Maybe she's joking or being extra nice to me but there's something in her voice that tells me she really means what she said. Before I can say anything, she's gone so I decide it's time to get back to my counter, too.

My shift ends and I run, as usual, to pick up Meg from her school. I didn't call Tina because, as I said, I'm confused. I'm not sure where this thing is leading me and I'm not sure about talking about this with Tina, yet. When I reach the school, it's still five minutes before the final bell and I'm about to go to my normal standing area when Billy calls out to me.

"Hey, Oli!"

I wonder what he has to say because I come here every day and it's not like he calls me to have a chat every now and then. Maybe he wants to talk about the play or maybe Tina. I hope he doesn't ask anything too, personal.

"Hey, Billy. How're you doing?"

"I'm fine. I called you because I'm guessing you may start searching the crowd for your friend when she is, actually, here helping me free up some space by stacking things properly," he replies.

I'm more than amazed! I look inside and see Tina sitting on the floor, stacking packets of cookies on the lower shelf, and she looks up and smiles at me

"You want something, babe? I'm sure Billy will give me some freebies for being his extra hand at work today. We can share if you wait until I'm done," she says.

I didn't expect to see Tina here helping Billy! What's she doing here? But that doesn't stop me from smiling because I'm happy she's here. We pick up Meg and start walking towards our home.

"What are you doing here?" I ask, at last.

"I thought you may be late for work today, after last night, and may not be able to pick up Meg on time and I don't want mom to pick up Meg in the afternoon hours when the roads are busy," Tina replies.

I look at her, totally amazed by how much concern she has for my family, and I also notice that she uses 'mom', instead of Mrs. Jones as she did the first day when she met mom. After we reach home, I come to know that Tina has already called mom. Meg goes to bed and we chat for a while before mom has to leave for the rehearsal.

"So, you want to talk about it?" Tina asks.

I know I can try but I can't hide it so I think it's best to talk to her. At least I can find out what she's thinking. She just listens and nods every now and then, letting me know she is listening to me as I tell her everything. Every thought I've had, from the erotic ones to the parental issues and from relationships to my own sexuality. I feel free, I needed this conversation!

"I'm happy we're talking about this. I know it's not easy for you and you need to think about a lot of things, especially Meg. So, I want you to be one hundred percent sure before we take any further steps. I can't comment on the sexuality thing, because I don't know, but I can tell you I'm not trying some kind of experiment on you. I don't know if I'm lesbian or not because I've never been attracted to anyone, except you. So, it's only you who can sort it out. I suggest we don't jump into anything, right away, and be friends as we are. I don't have a lot of friends and I don't want to rush and lose the one that I have, now. So, we better give it some time and see how it goes. We're not that old, we have a lot of time left on our hands and we can always talk to each other about anything," she finally stops.

I'm happy she understands my situation and she doesn't try to force me into anything but I'm also a little disappointed that she said she's only attracted to me. She didn't say anything about wanting to be by girlfriend or anything or even whether or not she loves me. I also tell her that tomorrow is mom's birthday and she suggests a surprise party but she gets a call from someone about something urgent. Before she leaves, she tells me we'd better not wish mom happy birthday in the morning and we'll plan the surprise later.

Chapter 22

I can't concentrate at work, I'm too excited from yesterday. I also told Meg about the plan of our surprise party for mom. I felt bad when I walked out of the door this morning without wishing mom happy birthday. I always liked to be the first one to wish her happy birthday but if I had, then she'd know we remembered her birthday and there would be no surprise.

I'm waiting for Tina. Yesterday, when mom came back from her rehearsal, Tina had gone already so mom called her and asked if she could make it to dinner today. She didn't mention her birthday and Tina was clever enough to pull some excuse. Mom never did celebrate her birthday since we moved here, but Tina is more like a family member so mom wants her to be here for dinner on her special day. Tina told me that she'll be coming to my shop during my lunch break, we'll have lunch together and also plan the surprise party.