Stubborn Hallucination

Hung up on something
I know I should have let go
Long ago
But it nags me everyday
And invades my dreams almost
Every night
And now I can't Sleep
And when I do it's not like sleep
But more like wasted time.

Persitent memories I don't
Want to relive
But I can't release
And I wonder
Everyday what's
Become of you and
Why I
So stubbornly care when
You never did
But maybe you did and just
Didn't know how to tell me.

The same things I've been
Questioning since the day
We met
And I knew I'd never
Get my answers but
I've always
Wondered and waited and
Thought maybe one day
You'd
Tell me and I'd actually be
Able to trust you enough
To listen.

But I never could
Trust you
Cause you've been lying
Since
That first night making the
Excuses that let
You do whatever
You wanted without feeling
Like
You ever did anything wrong
Because
You always thought
You
Were God and I'm sure
You still do
Two years later.

Cause you're too stubborn to change
So why do I wonder if
You have
When I know without asking
You
Haven't and
You never will and even
In my dreams you're still the same.