Selling My Dignity Pt. 01

Even though it seemed so interesting to her, the more I learned about this collar, the more I wanted to just rip it off myself. My fingers search for a mechanism to take it off me.

"I see what you're doing," she smirked. "Don't even think about trying to take it off. It'll fry your brain if you do. And if you try to escape out of the city, I can just control you to take you back here"

I just stare at her incredibly. I don't know if she was kidding or not anymore.

"Just look at this," she said, taking her phone out. After a few swipes of her screen, she looked at me and pressed on her screen. Her pupils flashed a bright blue.

Just just stared at each other for an instant, until she slowly raised her right arm up. I didn't quite get it until I realized my own right was now up.

"I can make you move," she said, taking her arm closer to herself with her hand in front of her face. My arm mimicked the same movement as if it was her reflection.

She closed her hand in a fist and opened it back up, one finger at a time blocking her view, and mine too. "I can see what you see".

Her index then gently brushed her bottom lip. "I can feel what you feel".

She then licked her index finger and sucked on it, making me do the same thing. I felt my new plump lips sucking on my small index finger. "And I can taste what you taste" She finally said, before her pupils flash a bright blue again, severing our connection. "Cool, isn't it?"

A huge chill came over me as I regained control of my body.

"Yeah..." I reply, trying to force a smile even though I honestly didn't know how to feel about this.

"Oh, and lastly. I took something from you. I didn't think you'd need it anyway." She tried to look away.

I couldn't figure out what she took from me. I patted myself down trying to find what was missing. "Maybe she took one of my kidneys?" I thought. But once I patted myself between my legs, it became clear what she took.

"No, you haven't done that?" I asked, shocked.

"Well, let's consider this as payment for all the modifications I did on you. And let me remember you, you're my property until you've paid your debt!" She retorted, self-justified in her explanation.

There was a full-size mirror on the wall beside me so I ripped the cords hanging from my arm, stood up, and took off my gown to see the extant. I looked a bit feminine before, but now I was on the verge of looking like a little bimbo. The small modifications she did to my face made it look like a doll. My narrow waist made my inflated butt look so thick and round. And in the middle of my bare thighs laid that small thing. What before was an impressively circumcised 9" cock, was a small, foreskin-covered 1.5-inch limp dicklet with a small and tight ball sack.

My eyes swiped up and down my reflection, trying to find an ounce of masculinity, but the image I saw showed a small albino naked girl with a tiny girldick. Water poured into my eyes. My new appearance distressed me, as I didn't recognize my old self in it. I sat back on the bed. Eli must have seen how I felt about this. This emotionally awkward girl didn't seem to know how to react to such a situation.

"It might be small, but I assure you it still works. I made sure to do a really good job with the nerve connection. Anyway, you're not gonna need it for what you're gonna do for a while." She said, trying to reassure me.

"Here, let me show you," she said, taking out her phone again, seeing her previous words didn't have the effect she wanted. She swiped her screen again, and the familiar blue flash lit up her pupils.

My right hand moved by itself. My fingers traced down my stomach to my inner thigh. Goosebumps appeared all over my skin.

"Please... I don't think it's a good idea" I said, trying to stop her from doing what I knew she was gonna do.

"Just let it happen". Those words escaped my mouth against my will. My right hand was still pacing up and down my thigh, making my stubby little dick rise. It went from a 1.5-inch shrimp to a 2.5-inch rock-hard little nub. Its growth wasn't enough to make the foreskin retract from the head.

I thought she might make me touch my dick at any second, but instead, I was surprised by my own fingers from my left hand, they rubbed on my perky nipple. "Mmmh" a moan escaped my lips. My finger brushed and gently pinched my left nipple. My nipples were now fully erected. Even though my breasts were small, they were clearly female and had a nice perky shape and good size areolas. The gentle play of my fingers became more forceful and cupped and pinched my nipple with more intensity as my right grabbed my inner thigh with more intensity.

My moans were becoming more and more strong, and I think I was hearing Eli start to breathe heavily too. If she feels the same things I do, it makes sense for her to be overwhelmed by these sensations. My body rocked like a boat continuously moved by the waves. MY small nub was yearning for attention, throbbing in the air. Finally, the index and thumb of my right hand grabbed it. An electric shock flowed through my body. This tiny foreskin-covered dick was much more sensitive than my old tool.

As if we were some sirens singing together, we both moaned in unison. The soft tips of my fingers pumped my little shaft, the pleasure making my back arch like a cat in heat. My left hand had moved from my nipple to my mouth. She was making me suck on my index finger like a hungry slut yearning to have something put in her mouth.

My breathing was heavy and paced by uncontrolled moans. Precum was covering the tip of my fingers as it pumped my tiny dick gently. I looked down at myself, and I saw my pink, erected nipple on my small breast and my small cock, glistening with precum. It might have just been a few seconds of pumping but the foreplay had me already on edge and now I was way over the edge, surfing on a large wave of pleasure that was about to break in a trembling orgasm at any second now.

"Ohh shit... Mmmhmm!!" I cried, as my tiny cock erupted. Ropes shot out of my small apparatus. Strings of cum flowed out my little nub like never before. I don't know how such a small thing could shoot so much spunk, but finally, after forming a small puddle between my thighs.

I was exhausted, but my cum covered hand moved on its own again, the index was coming for my mouth. My lips enveloped my cum covered finger and sucked on it to savor all the salty slim. I never had tasted cum before and somehow, it wasn't so bad. I kept my finger in my mouth for a while, it wasn't moving anymore. It took me a while before realizing Eli had given me back control of my body.

"See? It's not so bad having a small one? I made sure to make it extra fun when I installed it on you" She said, exhausted herself. I could see she clearly felt what I felt while she was in control, given the wet patch at her crotch on her pants.

"Yeah, I guess," I said, a bit timid. I didn't want to admit it, but it was the best orgasm of my life so far.

As time passes, some events can change you and mark you. This felt in some way like one of these moments. I felt something in me was not like before somehow.

As I was deep in my post-nut thoughts, Eli interrupted my silence: "Go get a shower, we will go shopping after that. It's the last door on the right in the corridor" she said while throwing me a bath towel.

I wrapped myself in the towel and walked down the small corridor. The corridor only had 4 doors in it. I had never been in this part of the building without a bag over my head. It now seemed like a rather small commercial apartment to me. I entered the aforementioned door and inside was a small commercial bathroom with a shower in the back. In this room, there were a lot of esthetic products scattered all around. I guess that Eli must also live in this building, it looks like a typical girl's bathroom. I ran the hot water and rinsed myself. It felt good to wash off all my dried sweat and cum on my body.

I looked around my small breast and tiny cock to see if there were any signs of scars, but there was nothing. I know that modern technology was good, but it had to be said that Eli had done an excellent job. My tight waist also felt almost natural on me now. I grabbed my voluminous ass cheek in my hand, it was so soft... I used her shampoo and the odor reminded me of her sweet smell, from when she rode me. By the time I switched off the water, the room was now a steamy sauna. The humid air of the room condensated on my skin, cooling me off and giving me goosebumps. I swiped the mirror over the sink with my towel to try to see myself through the fog. Once the surface was clear enough to let me see my own reflection I was again staggered but the beauty I saw in front of me. If my old self had encountered a girl that looked like this, he might have tried to get her number even though I was a huge pussy back then... and still now.

I dried my hair and body and wrapped myself in the towel.

I made my way back to the room where the hospital bed was. When I entered the room, I still could smell the odor of sex I left there earlier. Eli had changed herself into a tight pair of jeans and a small t-shirt. She was still working on her computer.

"Hey there's a pair of leggings and a T-shirt on the bed," She said without lifting her eyes from her screen.

I pulled the black legging up my legs. The soft fabric embraced my skin, giving me a warm feeling. The garment was especially tight around my ass, it seemed to reveal all my curves, my little bulge included. Luckily enough, the T-shirt she gave me was too big for me and covered my bulge. My shoes were on the ground by the bed. I guess that she ripped out all my clothes but my shoes the other day. I pulled them on, ready to go.

"All finished?" Eli asked me, turning to me.

She frowned when she looked at me. "What did you do with your hair... Did you at least brush them?" She asked me, irritated. I lifted my shoulder to indicate my ignorance. As a guy with long straight hair, I only used to tie them in a ponytail and call it a day.

"Ah, right... You must not but used to that I guess" Eli sighed. "Sit here, I'll go get a brush" She waved me to sit in the chair she was previously using while leaving the room.

A second later, she was back with the brush and started to pass it through my hair. I thought I looked ok before, but now it was so much more clean looking. She even spayed something on it that made it smoother.

"You know Allan, you really have to start acting like a girl. You look like one. If you act like a guy it'll just look weird... I won't go on the make-up today, but that's gonna be important too... Especially if you want to be able to catch some customers" She berated me. When she mentioned what I'll have to eventually do, I felt a wave of anxiety flow over me. Faced with this mountain of unknown a knot formed in my stomach, when.

Before I knew it, she was already done doing my hair before she tied it back up in a much neater ponytail than I had before her intervention.

"Come on up now, let's get to the shopping mall before it's too late"

She dragged me to her car. In the car, the radio was on but both of us were silent. Eli broke the silence: "Hey Allan, we're gonna have to find you a new name... I don't think Allen matches you well anymore... Also, I don't think the goons that sold you to me would be happy to know that Allan is still alive."

She was right. I owed these goons more than the 155K they received for my body. If they were to learn that Allan was still alive, I'm sure they'd want to have a talk with him. What should be my new name... Back In high school, I remember I really liked a girl. She was called Eva. I always like that name. Short, beautiful, and elegant. Maybe I could change that a bit to keep a part of myself in it.

"Ava" I whispered.

"What?" Eli asked.

"Ava" I repeated a bit louder. Eli looked at me with a bit of doubt in her eye but finally acquiesced. "Alright, let's go with Ava. It's your name anyway", she said looking at the road.

After a bit of driving, we finally arrived at the mall. At first, we shopped for some jeans. I was surprised at how tight on my legs and ass those were. I got a few tops. Some showed my belly, and others tried to show my almost nonexistent cleavage. I even got a pair of short skirts and a slutty tight red dress. Most of the clothes were chosen by Eli. I had no idea what I was doing. But something that shocked me was how the garment fell on me. I would have never thought that a short red dress could look good on me. Not only did it look good, but it made me feel... Sexy. The girl I saw in the mirror was tantalizing me with nice ass cute eyes and suckable lips. Looking at this girl was dangerous. It revealed feelings in me that I didn't know existed. A part of me liked being this girl.

After an afternoon of walking, the loose T-shirt I had was starting to bother me. It rubbed. It rubbed on my sensitive nipples. They felt chaffed and painful. How are girls dealing with this all the time?! Eli must have realized this by my awkward way of walking and the way I held myself.

"I know what you need, come here," She said, dragging me by my arm. I lifted my eyes to see what kind of boutique she was dragging me into. My pale cheeks burned a rosy color because of my embarrassment. She was taking me to a lingerie store. All around me were cute bras and panties. I felt like a pervert walking in here. Mannequins wore all these sexy and lacy underwear, I couldn't even start to imagine what I'd look like with these on myself. But before I could say anything, Eli was already picking things up for me to try.

"Wait... You don't even know what are my sizes" I protested trying to slow her down.

"I've worked on you for a couple of hours. So, I think I DO know your sizes quite well, thank you. Now, instead of being a nuisance, tell me red or black?" She asked with lacy low-cut bras in her hands.

"Uhm.. red I guess. But.. what if the clerk sees I have a dick" I whispered, worried.

"What if she sees it? Why would she give a fuck, you're not the first girl with a dick here, I'm sure of it. And she would really have to be looking for it, given your size." she retorted, getting tired of me. "Now, just go try these in this fitting room" She ordered me.

I thought Eli was starting to be a bit more soft on me, but I probably exasperated her a bit too much. The cold and stiff demeanor I first saw from her was coming back. I went into the changing room with a pile of underwear to try. When I took my clothes off, I came face to face with Ava. It was still a bit weird, but my brain seemed to be starting to register that this girl was me. I didn't lose too much time. I didn't want to make Eli wait more than necessary. I started with a small black pair of panties. I pull them up my legs. Like most girl clothes, their softness fascinated me. I was scared that my cock might try to slip out on that thin garment. But alas, it was too small to do that. Instead, the soft support this small piece of clothing gave me felt so nice. It perfectly matched the shape of my butt, even if it didn't cover half of it. I tried the matching black bra that was paired with it. This little demi-cup bra finally gave me a bit of cleavage. But it still felt a bit awkward looking at me like this. Now more than ever, any trace of masculinity I still had in me was completely invisible.

I popped my head out of the curtains of the changing room and signaled Eli to come to check on me.

She entered this little room with me. And went straight to business. She checked the fit of my underwear around my ass and then my bra.

"It's too tight, turn around I'll loosen it up by a notch" She directed me. She seemed unphased by the feminine look I showed. She changed the fit of the bra.

She looked at me for a second, and suddenly, her hands dived into my cup to readjust my breasts in my bra.

"Eeehhh" I whimpered. Her cold hands against my sensitive nipple made me jump. But once she was finished, the bra was definitely more comfortable and made my small cleavage look even juicier.

I stared in the mirror for a while. Again entranced by Ava.

"What did I say? I knew I had the good sizes", Eli told me with a smug look on her face. We tried most of the other undergarments and chose some of the most comfortable ones and sexiest. When we finished, Eli paid. But she made sure I understood this wasn't a gift, and she'd add all of that on my tab.

As we were driving back, Eli turned to me: "I found you a place to crash for a while."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I can't let you stay at my place. It's too small, and I don't think you'd like the idea of people getting butchered in the room next to yours... But don't worry. I have a friend. She owes me favors. You'll stay with her for some time." She announced. Given my circumstance, that was more than I could ask for. She could have thrown me in a dog cage if she really wanted to.

"Oh, thanks... And don't worry Eli. I'll start reimbursing you as soon as possible" I said, a bit awkward with the way this conversation was going.

"Oh, you better. Remember that with this collar, I'll know where you are. At all times". She said pointing at my collar.

The rest of the car ride was silent. It was already night and dark outside. It was a cloudy night, the orange hue of the city reflected on the cloud of the sky. Ironically, this orange hue was similar to the one I saw when I first entered the city a year ago. It felt like it was a new start. A second chance. The city was still as rough as in my first attempt, but now I've lost part of the innocence and naivety I once had.

We were now in the downtown district of LA, where most of the skyscrapers were. She stopped in front of one of those tall glass condo towers. "This is it. It's probably the last time we'll see each other for a while. Take this," She said, giving me a cheap smartphone. "We'll keep in touch with this."

"Oh, thanks... And Eli... I don't know how to say this. But thanks, I don't know why but you saved me" I said sheepishly.

"'Saved'... It's a big word. And it won't be easy for you in the next few months. Then again, If you make it, I'll also be making a nice buck in the end." She diverted my thanks. Even though she tried to make it look as if she was only doing this for the money, my guts had me believing that this cold and awkward girl did it for a more noble reason.

"Now, just buzz for apartment 769 in the condo lobby. The name of my friend is Amber. She's probably waiting for you. Now go", She said, shooing me out of the car.

I grabbed my bags of new clothes and went inside the lobby. I typed the apartment number and pressed the call button.

"Drring... Drring..click", "Hello? Whoz izit?" a girl voice with a strong French accent answered.

"I... I'm Eli's friend, Ava. She told me I could maybe sleep here for a few nights"

"Ah yes, Come in my friend. Take ze elevator to ze 7th floor and I'll be on ze right down ze corridor" She answered.

The door of the entrance buzz indicated to me it was unlocked. I fast walked to it to not miss it.

I went up the elevator to the 7th floor and walked my way to door 769. The whole building screamed luxury and modern taste. Everything was tall and simple. The kind of simplicity only the rich could afford. Once I arrived, I was about to knock on the door, but it opened an instant before I could.

A flamboyant and vibrant woman was on the other side of the door. It contrasted with everything I had seen in the days leading to this moment. Her hair was neon red, on the verge of a strawberry color while her lipstick was another shade of neon pink. Her make-up was colorful. She was only wearing a neon green sports bra and matching yoga pants. Her arms were littered with tattoos of all kinds and a nose ring hung over her upper lip.